Crime and Punishment and Pride

Reading the crime and punishment, you realize that there is a large amount of pride scattered here and there. Looking closely we can not find ‘prideful’ characters, as to speak, but we can see individuals pride flare up in certain situation. These situations are almost ignition feelings and emotions from characters. Let’s take a closer look.


Pride in wrongdoing:


Raskolnikov has this certain pride in the fact that he killed the pawnbroker and was not caught. He seems to taunt authorities about the fact that they cannot find the killer. He either wants to tether on the edge or he has too much confidence and pride. The latter could be very possible because so far everything has been going well, thus increasing his pride.


Pride in contrition:


This is barely illustrated but I feel like Raskolnikov has a little pride in contrition. He feels remorse or compassion, usually for the poor, and then he helps them out. There was a scene where he told his mom that he spent all his money to give to the poor family. Also in his head he feels a little pride when he helps people, even though in the end they take some of his money and he gets mad. There is some pride in the fact that HE actually helped someone. It makes him feel good.


Pride in repentance:


Although Raskolnikov does not have pride in repentance, we see a glimpse of it in Marmeladov. He has this sort of pride in the fact that he is repenting. Although he is not proud in his situation in life, he is proud in the fact that he realizes his wrongs and issues.


Pride in apathy:
The reason that Raskolnikov takes pride in his apathy is because he feels like it sets him apart from society. It’s a trait that makes him different from the characters around him and he likes this. It makes him think that he is outside the boundary of society, just like God is outside of time.


Weekly wrap Up

Hello and welcome back. My last blog post was kind of sad and morbid. It might of surprised some of you. The reason I did that is because we are reading a serious book. Although we have read books about killing and murder before this one seems different. It makes you question your life, morals and your existence deeply. Right from the start you feel like this is going to be a deep psychological book. You also strangely connect with the character. Although you feel like its wrong. How can you have similarities with a murderer? I truly cannot find anything thats ‘hilarious’ in this book so far. This book just twists your(or maybe its only me) mind so much, that I decided to keep my blog posts serious for this book. I am looking forward to reading more of the book and having class discussions. I feel like this book can be better understood with multiple points of view. I really liked this weeks class discussion. It helped me catch some of the details that I did not realize were there. Sadly I missed two classes because of illness so I do not know what happened then. Before signing off I just quickly want to add that Raskolnikovkov is one of the strangest and complex characters that I’ve ever encountered. I don’t think that any play/novel/poem has had such a character. As the reader you don’t know whether you should pity him or hate him. You become torn between whats good and whats bad.

Crime and Punishment Part 1 Chapter 6

I know this quote is super long but I think it is very important. Just read it.

“A hundred thousand good deeds could be done and helped, on that old woman’s money which will be buried in a monastery! Hundreds, thousands perhaps, might be set on the right path; dozens of families saved from destitution, from ruin, from vice, from the Lock hospitals—and all with her money. Kill her, take her money and with the help of it devote oneself to the service of humanity and the good of all. What do you think, would not one tiny crime be wiped out by thousands of good deeds? For one life thousands would be saved from corruption and decay. One death, and a hundred lives in exchange—it’s simple arithmetic! Besides, what value has the life of that sickly, stupid, ill-natured old woman in the balance of existence! No more than the life of a louse, of a black-beetle, less in fact because the old woman is doing harm.”

Here is my reasoning for why this quote is important. This book is not a about a murder. Well we do have a murder here but that is not the important part. Thus, we should not analyze and overthink ever single action the character does. That is not the point of this novel. The author is trying to bring a very important topics to the table.

Who is a human? Who sets laws and morals and what they are? In the end, who is responsible?

Expanding on laws and morals. Is it right to kill? This is where this quote comes in. Here you are presented with two options. You either kill one and save thousands or thousands suffer while one prospers. I think this can be applied to any situation that involves death. For example soldiers in war torn countries face this decision almost everyday. Should they risk the lives of their comrades or should they blow up a village that potentially has women and children? These are the kind of deep questions that author is trying to figure out.

Just a little bonus point. Some may wonder why the soldiers are talking about how that is a terrible thing to give all her money to a monastery. In that era, the church was connected closely with the government and was very very rich (sadly the same thing is happening now). Although the church did try to help the poor, the effort was small and it did not help many. The young men believed that the church should not get even more money when there were people on the streets who were dying.




Greek Plays


Most not if all Greek plays end in tragedy. From my experience reading Greek plays they all seem to be tragedy’s in one way or another. There is always a higher power, the Greek gods and they control almost everything where u like it or not. That aspect is one of the things that makes them mainly tragedy’s. If also take look at society, there weren’t a lot thing things in there favor. Infant mortality was high, constant wars, survival of the fittest and philosophy. People wanted to know why things happened the way they happened. So this whole environment is reflected in these plays. The gods would be the reason for explaining the explainable. The constant fighting would reflect the warring city states. Death was there to show you how short peoples lives were back then.

Вишнёвый Сад Act 1


Miss me? Well welcome back. Today we started reading Антона Чеховоба play “Вишнёвый Сад”. Before we start I have to note that its hard reading this play because it feels wrong reading it in English. My brain automatically switches to Russian. As I write this blog its a little hard to concentrate on which language I have to use. I also think reading this play in its original language is way more better because you can really understand what the author is trying to say. Translations tend to lose a lot of meaning along the way.

Act 1 seems to have a lot of emotions. Their sprinkled everywhere. Someones is either crying or proposing. It feels like real life. There are so many emotions and feelings going on in a day. The author takes all these emotions and shows them to the reader. I feel like there is a lot of symbols in this Act. Especially the elephant in the room aka the cherry orchard. It’s like it posses some magical powers. It’s everywhere. Not only does it appear everywhere it also happens to be the center of this whole conflict.

Cut it down? My dear man, you must excuse me, but you don’t understand anything at all. If there’s anything interesting or remarkable in the whole province, it’s this cherry orchard of ours.

The quotation above perfectly describes some of the emotions that are in the play. People are putting so much of their emotion into this orchard. They cannot have it sold.  I noticed that this conflict is what this story is about. The family is in debt, they need money but they can’t sell their beloved orchard. They must save it. This way a story is made. There must be some sort of conflict no matter how small or big it is. It just has to exist.

“Delight in Disorder” by Robert Herrick

Look there I am with Discord! 

Welcome! I want to cut to the chase today because I saw allusion in the poem we had to read right away. I understand this might not be ‘serious’ enough for some people but hear me out. I like to make connections in my mind when I read something. This time it was the lovely poem written by Robert Herrick called “Delight in Disorder”.

A sweet disorder in the dresss4e1-windows

This stanza makes “disorder” into a character. Although it is not capitalized I still strongly feel that disorder is its one character. The poem mainly concentrates on disorder. Thus making me think that disorder is a character.

In the show My Little Pony there is a character named “Discord”(seen in the picture above) and he causes a lot chaos. He is a character with a sense of humor and creativity. He likes it when everything is in chaos. Lamps floating, upside down house and etc. This poem is almost a direct allusion to him. Whenever he is around everything is upside down. In the poem you can see this disorder . For example

“An erring lace, which here and there “


“Ribands to flow confusedly; “.

give the poem this authentic feel of disorder and disharmony. Another example that led me to my final conclusion that lead me to bring the character from the show and this poem was these lines:

Do more bewitch me, than when art
Is too precise in every part.
The character does not like when things are orderly or organized.

Aside from the interesting allusion I noticed the unique structure of the poem. Stanza are written here and there without a certain format. The poem is kind of just there, just like disorder itself. I personally like it because it makes the poem more personal. This helps connect the reader with the poem. Overall I enjoyed this poem and I am eager to hear what my classmates have to say about it. Thank you and have a nice day!

Weekly Wrap up and The Hollow Men

Weekly Wrap

Hello! Hello! Welcome. Remember how I this week I had a large amount of questions about the poem we had to read in class? Well this time I have answers for you and myself! Our teacher sent us a wonderful guide that helped me understand the poem better. So I am going to pull up the questions I had from my previous blog post and answer them with the help of the resource provided by my teacher.

Question #1

I have never encountered poems with an introduction. I was not sure what this meant. I did not quite understand who Mistah Kurtz was and how he was important to the poem.

Mistah Kurtx is an allusion to character in work by Conrad called “Heart of Darkness”. In this work Mistah is portrayed as a hollow character. He was involved in the slave trade and other not so good things. So I think the author did this on purpose would have a better connection and understanding o his poem.

Question #2

Why a penny for the Old Guy?


Apparently the author refers to Guy Fawkes, he tired to blow up the Parliament Building. Since then there has been a day decided to him on November 5th. People build a straw Guy Fawkes and light him up with fireworks/fire. The reason for the penny is because children usually want to buy fireworks, so their asking for money.

Question #3

The placing of the excerpt from the Lord’s Prayer also leaves me confused. Why did he put it there?

I am still not quite sure but I have a better understanding. First off I was right. He does refer to the Kingdom of Heaven. The reason he used that prayer is so that the reader would understand what Kingdom he is referring to. The reason he structures For Thine is the Kingdom weirdly and uses repetition is because he wanted to have a sort of liturgical tone. He wanted it to sound almost like a prayer that a priest would say in church.

I am very surprised by T.S. Eliot. He made a very deep and beautiful poem that I did not except. I really enjoyed it.


Hollow Man by T.S. Eliot

I’m a ghost because ghosts are hollow


For the first time in forever we are doing a pre-writing blog. Yay! I’m happy. So let’s dive right in. We had to read a poem “Hollow Man” by T.S.Eliot. This was a long poem but a very strange one. In the begining I noticed that the poem had some sort of an introduction or preface.

Mistah Kurtz—he dead.

A penny for the Old Guy

I have never encountered poems with an introduction. I was not sure what this meant. I did not quite understand who Mistah Kurtz was and how he was important to the poem. The poem did mention death but it did not refer to a person. It referred to “we” and not to he or I. Why a penny for the Old Guy? I can guess that he can be refering to an old entertainer on the street who can tell you a story for a penny or something like that but I am not sure. Any thought?

Towards the end of the poem the author inserted interesting sentences.

For Thine is the Kingdom
For Thine is
Life is
For Thine is the

“For thine is the Kingdom” comes from none other than the Lord’s Prayer. In the prayer it goes like this:

For thine is the kingdom, the power, and the glory forever

What Elliot did was strange, he only took the first part and then used repetition to chop it up weirdly. It is like he never finishes those stanzas. The reader is expecting more but it never comes. It’s almost like a cliffhanger. The placing of the excerpt from the Lord’s Prayer also leaves me confused. Why did he put it there? One theory that comes to mind is that towards the end of the poem he talks about death and dying. He could be referring to the Kingdom of Heaven. Usually go up there after you die. So this could be some sort of foreshadowing.

Thanks for stopping by! See you next time!

Weekly Wrap Up


So apparently I have to be professional now. Can you believe it? I have a whole list of things that I can’t do! Isn’t it nice? Oh sorry I cannot use contractions anymore. Without further adieu let us continue and discuss this week. This was a pretty busy week. We have started our poetry unit and we are slowly chopping our way through it. In class this week we also discussed AP essays. This was a great exercise because we learned what the AP readers are expecting of us. When I was reading the lowest scored essay I realized that I am not as bad as I originally thought. Which I think is a very good thing. On the other hand when I looked at the highest scored essay I realized that I have a lot of work to do. Looking at these essays I noticed that structure is very important and so is the flow. You cannot have one without the other thus it can make or break your essay. Structured and organized thoughts are also more enjoyable to read. In the future I hope we get to have more to time to discuss essays in class. I understand we can read these essays at home but when we discuss them in class I have a understand better. My mind is only limited to so many thoughts. My classmates, which of whom have a better understanding of the english language, have ideas and thoughts that I would of not though about. Thank you classmates! So thank you for stopping by! See you next week.



Weekly Wrap Up

Weekly Wrap

Words. That’s what counts right? Let’s begin writing shall we?

I just want to say to say I was surprised that we had to listen to a Bastille song. I was not excepting that at all. I was expecting some old ode or something like that. I will have to wait till Monday I guess because I did not quite understand of it fit with the other poems that we had to read.

Speaking of the other poems I love the poem”O Captain! My Captain!”. It is one of my favorite poems. I thus made a video trailer thing for this poem, which was really fun. It describes so many emotions and feelings. What I find the most interesting is that this poem indirectly is about Abraham Lincoln. The worlds in this poem fit so perfectly and the flow is beautiful. It really brings out of emotions. The other poem “The Rime of the Ancient Mariner” was long. It was very long. I wonder how long it took the person to write it. I personally would be bored and tired by the 2nd page. I did not like quite as much as “O Captain! My Captain!”

This week was fun. We read some personal statements and drew a lot of literary terms on the board (Black Magic or Black Hole, I don’t really  remember which one, were my favorite).I was’t there on Wednesday but I heard it was a lot of fun. As a seeker on a journey to find fun and happiness in the world I was greatly sad I missed this class.

See you next week!